Everyone thinks true love is just a fairytale in most cases that’s true when a father meets his daughter for the first time he’s supposed to love her at least as much as he loves her mother. Good men don’t create an unwanted baby. Sure surprise this happened and they’re almost always a good thing.

In my life, every single surprise, I’ve ended up enjoying in the end.

I never knew how to love myself before this relationship. I know my skills are amazing. Be strong. I know I have a ton of hard skills. Also, I keep thinking I need a job, but why do I need to work anymore when I’m doing plenty with less. I spent my entire life of being poor in love my financial status doesn’t matter. I’m not sure what happened to get me to where I am today. It’s a long dragged out story that I will share eventually.

For now, just know I followed my true intention stopped fighting it and all my dreams finally began coming. True I mean he stopped me from hurting myself not just from running into traffic. He saved me from myself now for the first time in my entire life I get to be me.

I wish anyone who chooses to give up their trauma, has an easier time than what I just endured. I lost connection to my true self and everything I believe in when it comes to taking care of myself. I found a best friend who has my back when my mind isn’t working. I found a person who loves my art almost as much as he loves me. I met a person who believes I can be an amazing author and make a lot of money, even though I honestly don’t think that’s true for myself.

This man is my hero. This man is a person who I wish I had my children with. This man is a person who I have met multiple times throughout our lives, but there’s no way of proving it to anyone except ourselves.

I wish I could undo the things that I’ve done wrong. I wish I could fix the problems I’ve created. And most of all I wish my best friend the happiest life he could ever imagine whether that includes me or not.

My hope for you reading this is that you’ll take a moment to check out my book “Fully Awake: a flight for my life” by Maryellen Hoffman.

One day I hope you can learn how to love yourself as much as I have been able to learn to love me and accept my own flaws. I spent my entire life trying to be the best possible version of myself and I really don’t think I can get any better than what he considers perfect and I have a lot of flaws left to fix.